crazy

Wow it's been a while since I've posted. Things have been so crazy lately it seems like I haven't had time to breathe! Maybe after being able to rest some this week I'll feel better. And next week is the Dinner theater so that means that I won't have that play practice after next week. We are going down to see my mom's family for Thanksgiving. I'll try to write sometime next week

The weekend

This weekend my mom went with our church to Women of Faith.
She had a good time I think. Courtney and I are going to go to the teen girls version in January
called Revolve. It will be fun. While mom was at that, at home we were pretty busy. On Friday night we went with Melanie to see her school play, which was good. Then afterwards we went to her house and hung out. The doughtery's were there. We played mad gab, it was funny. We stayed there until around midnight then we we went home.
On Saturday we had play practice and it turns out that Courtney does get to be in it. One of the girls had to drop out so she is going to play Nancy. Then yesterday we had church, then play practice from 2-4, then Daniel's birthday party. It was a pretty good day in all. I cannot wait for the dinner theater! It's going to be so much fun performing it.

Church and Plays

So today is Wednesday which means that I have church tonight. It should be interesting to hear what Robbie talks about. He always gives good messages. Hopefully this week all of the worship band is there because for the last 2 weeks somebody has been missing and it hasn't sounded the same. The first week was actually pretty good. Alex, the drummer, wasn't there so it was acoustic which sounded kind of cool. But last week Brandon, the main singer, wasn't there and it just sounded weird. Maybe today everybody will be there.

Practices for both of the plays are going well. We are blocking for both of them, we just haven't blocked on the actual stage for the Dinner Theater one yet. The youth room is always being used whenever we have practice. So whenever we finally get to block on stage it will be interesting to see how it all works. Yesterday we blocked for the Christmas play and that went OK. It just took forever. My lines and blocking are easy for the Christmas play. I have 4 lines in the whole thing and one of them is "Ahem!". I got to play a goth. Nobody can see me playing as one, but I think I'll pull it off. :)

I do very well however, playing as Maria, the ditsy waitress. Some times I think I play the part too well. Ha ha. I'm excited. It's going to be fun.

Snow

I really don't know what to write today. My mind is blank about what to write.
I hope it snows this winter. I would love if we got like a foot of snow. That would be awesome! As long as it doesn't snow over Thanksgiving. We are going out of town for Thanksgiving and that would stink if it were to snow while we were gone. I would feel gypped.

Bball

My verse for this week is 1 John 2:17 " The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever." Hopefully I'll remember it next Sunday.

So this week is pretty much like last week except all the bball games got canceled because we couldn't find a gym to play in. Apprently WT's volleyball team is doing better than expected. If the games keep getting pushed back I just might be able to play in most of them. That would be cool, for me anyway.

More thoughts...

So I've been thinking about what I wrote on Tuesday and I think that maybe God let me go through that stuff so I could learn humility. I am not very good at humility. I haven't made a lot of mistakes that other people have so I tend to look down on them. I know I've made mistakes, I need to learn that just because other people's mistakes seem worse than mine, doesn't mean that they are worse than mine. In fact I'm pretty sure most of them are equal. I thought when I was younger that I was above other teenagers because I thought I knew more. WRONG! I really didn't know as much as I thought I did.
I've definitely learned that the hard way. I pretty much learn everything the hard way. It's like I don't pay attention when God's trying to teach me using the easy way. It seems only the hard way gets my attention. Why is that? Is it because I'm a fallen human? Is it because I'm stubborn and hardheaded when I want to be? Is it because I hate being wrong? It's probably all of those.

Right now it seems I'm learning to wait. Waiting on my knee to heal, waiting to learn what God wants me to do, and waiting for that special one. I can normally handle waiting. But long term waiting drives me crazy. A week before Christmas I start feeling antsy. Then two days before I'm ready to get it over with. Then on Christmas Eve I'm ready to explode. Watching the basketball game last night I so wished I was out there playing. It was making me crazy. Especially since we weren't playing that well. And then I had to leave early to go to play practice. And it turns out that I could've stayed and finished watching the scrimmage because we didn't even start practice till 8. And half of the cast wasn't even there. I was not happy.

I guess I'm just frustrated because I don't know what's going to happen with all these things. If I'm going to get to play bball when I want to, if I'm going to graduate on time, if I'm ever going to make all the changes I need to, if I'm ever going to make close friends at church, if I'm ever going to be the person I need to be and if I am ever going to find out what my purpose is. I know I have one, I just don't know what it is yet. And that drives me crazy. I just wish I knew where I am supposed to be going and what I'm supposedto be doing. Because right now I feel like I'm just stumbling around in the dark.

Update On My Knee

Yesterday I went to the doctor and he said I could get off my crutch and get rid of the knee immobilizer!! So now all I have is a knee brace with really big hinges. But it's so much better than the knee immobilizer. They have me doing exercises to build my knee muscles back up on the inside of my leg. It's just on the inside because the muscles are weaker on that side. They don't want me to strengthen the muscles on the outside because they are too strong as it is and that's why they are pulling the knee cap out.

The exercises are ok. I can feel the muscles being stretched out and worked, it's a weird feeling. I have to back in 2 weeks so they can check and see how I'm doing. Hopefully I'll be able to play in 5 weeks. Cause that's when we play Nicole's team and I really want to play against her! It would be so cool. I'll keep praying that my knee heals quickly.

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Thoughts

I've been thinking about a lot of stuff recently. Today I have been 17 for a month but I still don't feel any different than when I was 16. It's kind of funny because I remember thinking when I was 13 or 14 that I was so much smarter than other teenagers. That I knew more about life and what I was going to do. That I wasn't going to have the same problems as other teenagers. Now that I'm 17 I've discovered that I've pretty much gone through the same temptations and had the same problems as other teen girls, even with guys.
When I was younger I always told myself that I wasn't going to be boy crazy like all those other teenage girls. I wasn't going to waste my time thinking about a dumb boy. And for the most part I wasn't boy crazy. I mean I would like someone every now and then but I wouldn't ever talk to them or acknowledge that I liked them.
But It's like as soon as I turned 16 BAM! I started noticing guys more. I started thinking about them excessively. And I'm still doing that. It's annoying. I want to go back to the attitude I had before. Which was that I wouldn't even think about guys until college. I know I need to spend more time thinking about God and not guys. It's hard to control our thoughts though. My verse for the week is 2 Corinthians 10:5 " We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." I want to be able to live that out. I want people to be able to look and me and know that I'm not all caught up in drama or realationships. But for now that's not true. I may not be caught up like other girls are, but I still struggle with my thoughts. Having to memeorize a verse every week is starting to help though. I think that I am changing, it's just taking longer than I want it to.

This week

The next two weeks we are going to busier than usual. I have school everyday from 9 to either 4 or 5. Then from 5 to 6:15 I have bball practice. I have to leave bball practice early because I have to go to play practice on Monday,Tuesday, and Thursday from 7 to 9. Monday and Thursday is practice for the Dinner Theater practice. Tuesday is practice for the Christmas play. Oh also on Thursday this week we have two bball games. But I only get to see the first one because of play practice. It's crazy!

It's almost as crazy next week. Especially with them moving practice to 5 to 7. I don't see what was wrong with 4 to 6. I guess that was the only time we could use the gym. It will be interesting to see how the games go on Thursday. Hopefully the team will do well.

Shopping and Snow

So yesterday I went shopping with Aunt Laura and Courtney. It was awesome. I got a new book and new CD at Family Christian book store. Then we went to Target and I got a new shirt, a new jacket, and two calendars, oh and also a patch that's says "free hugs". Courtney wanted it so I got it for her.

The book I got is very interesting. Courtney and I are reading it out loud. It's called "Guys like Girls who..." by Chad Eastham. It definitely makes you think about the way you act. The CD I bought is the new Barlowgirl Christmas CD. It's cool. I love the way their voices harmonize in the songs. I wish I could learn to harmonize like that.


The new shirt I got is a blue teal color. And my new jacket is black. I like it. It's warm and cozy. Hopefully it will start getting cold soon. Cause this 80 degree weather in November is just weird, even for the Panhandle. I hope it snows! I love snow! It's so pure and white. It makes me think of what Jesus did for us on the cross, and what our hearts are supposed to look like.

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I took this picture last night and I really like it. I edited it in Picasa which is an amazing photo shop program. I'll be posting more pics soon.